Dramatic Monolouge Attempt

I’m scaring myself
Because for the first time
I see myself falling in love
Usually I’ve never realized until i was deep within
All wrapped up
In my head, in your head…etc
But I’m outside of myself this time
Im much more aware and conscious
Im a little older now, less naive
So im understanding the logic of this falling process
And its progressing quite rapidly
Each passing day a bit of me becomes more attached
To everything about you
And it’s scary
For someone like me
Who’s been so cold and closed all her life
To actually
Want to be open
Want to feel
Want to change
And all for you
Like…
Who are you?
But a man
Who just came Into my life about 3 months ago
3 months isn’t even enough time
Is this even love?
*Sigh*
I know infatuation can be blinding
Hmm…
I’m doubting myself again
Its the closedness
I never want to accept feelings
So I guess maybe im denying because I know its true
Denial is the first sign right?
Any who
Im falling
In love
Or maybe Im already in love because falling in requires the acknowledgment of the feeling of love itself
So..
I guess I’m in love with you
And I’m crashing into it more every day