2/30

Make me never want anyone else
Anything else in the world
Make me feel the the mountaintops of the world are endless
And seas are bottomless
Because I wouldn’t care enough to prove you wrong
Make me yours
Possession at it’s finest
It’s something a girl always wants
To feel wanted
To feel more than wanted and to know that when we lay at nights our heads lie together
Bounded by a spark of mutual affection
Conjoined more than twins
I don’t think I could ever leave you
Because we’ve loved so long, I’ve given myself another reason to love me
And I love you
And vice versa

3/30

Maybe you love both of us
Because even when you say you love me, I tell you I hate her
You still pursue the friendship which I despise
Behind my back of course
But your lies have been brought before my eyes
& my eyes, even though dry
I’ve cried many times before
I wonder how many times you have to lie before I have to break down this lovely love we’ve restored
Pick me
Or go back to your whore

5/30

I’ll wait if I have to
No…
I will wait
For you
People will think I’m crazy of course
But good things are worth waiting for
Like saving ones self for marriage, I’ll save myself for you
Exclusivity between us two
I will prove that in time, love conquers all
Distance doesn’t matter
Problems fade like haircuts and our walls will crumble like paper
With love
It’ll shed away the dreary days only to bring better ones
& the problematic ways that used to have us guarded, mislead and so easy to persuay
I wanna make sure we never get back that way
With love
I want to conquer all
That’s agaisnt us
And I want love to conquer us
So that nothing important is below and all we look forward to is above
Love

12/30

I have no obligation to feel the way I do, you’re right
I’m not yours
You’re not my mister
I mean, I have my best interest for my heart 
But a girl cannot go on longing for love that isn’t going to happen
Or wanting someone who isn’t hers
Or ever going to be
It’s been too long to long for the future
& the present is intense
And the past hasn’t been nothing but dense arguments and time wasted on bad expense
So I feel like it’s time to say fuck you
No offense
I mean fuck it 
It’s all been so pretentious in false attempt to claim what has never commenced

13/30

I used to know you
Intimately 
We were almost identical it seemed
Our nerves would react at the same moment every time our eyes made contact
At first…
& I couldn’t combat the deal I made with my heart and soul’s contract to keep on ever loving you
But oh how so quickly that turned blue
My heart froze cold before my fingers could touch you
My stomach started aching before our problems became verbal 
And I…
Stopped all interaction before my fingers turned purple
And I….
Just stopped knowing you
It started with texts that always ended
Empty conversations that couldn’t be amended
Our infatuation with each other seemed to be suspended and was being apprehended because I just stopped knowing you
I couldn’t figure out who you were
Who I was 
Why I loved
Why I fell down from my dream cloud up above
I was blind obviously
But then again, that could happen when your day dreaming too close to the sun
Of course I thought you were the one
But I didn’t know you
So I stopped before we even begun
We were close once….

15/30

Which is better? Being single or in a relationship?, They asked

Well to start, I’m doing just fine
I didn’t die of being alone yet
And I’m single!
I mean, yes I’m lonely at nights
But I have my pillows!
And I take a lot comfort in that
But I assume when couples are lonely, pillows don’t suffice and that in itself makes them more lonely
And who needs more loneliness at this time in the world?
Or at this time of night…..

I like that I don’t have commitment
I’m young, not too sure what I need in life
I know what I want 
But do I truly need binding love at this age?
Probably not
I was taught this though and society seems to shove it down my throat
But I think the 20s are for living
Not loving

Do I want with someone from now to the end of my days?
I mean, that’s what its about right?
Loving until love itself is not enough and we have to bind ourselves with marriage to show everyone that love wasn’t enough
I never understood marriage….
But am I ready to stick with someone forever and after?
I don’t know

Am I ready to love fully and forever
Yes
But am I ready to do so now
No
I don’t even know myself 
I’m still learning to differentiate love, lust and infatuation
And if someone comes around, yes I will date them
But I don’t want to dabble in any ole relationship
More so because most of them turn out to be relationshits

I think I’ve answered your question….